»du legst meinen Wert nicht fest!« (you don't fix my value!)

varnish, dispersion paint & pencil on canvas

40 x 30 cm, 2017

»uneconomical« (unwirtschaftlich)

acrylic, emulsion paint, colored pencil & lead pencil (3H, 2H, HB, 3B), barrier tape

on canvas, 120 x 100 cm, 2017

tesoro mio (my darling)

»I carry you and I will continue to carry you even when you are old.« God in Jesaja 46,4

emulsion paint, colored pencil & lead pencil (3H, 2H, HB, 2B) on canvas, 120 x 100 cm

2017

Is there a man who desires that his wife would love him out of fear, guilt and obligation? Certanly none of clear consciousness. Same with Jesus: he longs for you to love him by heart, along with others who are part of his bride.

In the New Testament the bride is a description of the ecclesia: desciples of Jesus, who express the character of Jesus communal.

 

 

one

subtitle: »I am my lovers. I’m all the world to him.« Salomo 7,11

emulsion paint, colored pencil & lead pencil (2H, HB) on canvas, 120 x 100 cm, 2017

»And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.« 1 John 5:11,12 NIV

When God breathed life into Adam, he was both physically and spiritually alive. Adam was spiritually alive because his soul was in union with God. We were never designed to be separated from God or to live independendtly of Him. We were born to be spiritually alive.
For the Christian, to be spiritually alive is to be in union with God. This concept is repeatedly presented in Scripture by the prepositional phrase »in Christ«. Being in Christ is the theme of the New Testament. Like Adam, we were created to be in union with God. But Adam sinned and his union with God, and ours as well, was severed. It is God's eternal plan to bring human creation back to Himself and restore the union He enjoyed with Adam at creation. That restored union with God, which we find in Christ, is the essence of our identity.

 

»Ist das wahr?« (Is that true?)

subtitle: »Für Eile habe ich keine Zeit« (I've not time to hurry)

emulsion paint & lead pencil on canvas, 60 x 60 cm, 2016

Pastos paint, dried-up color chunks. An impassible background. In motion. »I've to time to rush« is not an easy task. Life is moving, full of dynamism and maybe hurry.

The frightened looking figure claims she would have no time to rush. Her face is full of tension: she hurries on. Non-thinking. No pause.  Saturation.

Is the society unreflecting vegetating? Simply in function? Lifewitnesses and -counselors: Yes! Nevertheless overburdened. Nevertheless hurry. Life continues to rattle at its pace. The pace increases. Intermediate the call: "deceleration - YES!" Dynamics continue to sweep.

It would be wise to accept help of a greater one - the help of God - to avoid a rushy lifetyle.

 

 

weightless dance (schwereloser Tanz)

pencil (B2, B5) on plywood poplar, 78 x 97 cm, 2015

The trinitarian community of God Father, God Son and God Holy Spirit is the source of life for the community of believers. We are invited and scheduled to partake in God's community life, his trinity dance.

The head of the wife is not drawn in a photorealistic way: the new Christ-like identity has not yet been taken fully.
On the way into the golden city, the new Jerusalem, where God is gathering his holy people out of all nations (revelation 7,9) - you can only enter this city if you match, if you are identified with her. Becoming compatible means embracing transition.
This city is a bride (revelation 21, 1-2). If we have not entered into the covenant with God - in love and truth - we will not reach the goal of being gathered: the great wedding in the eternal city, where we regain the complete unit which was destroyed by sin.

The woman's feet are not drawn in a photorealistic way: so far she hasn't put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace (Epheser 6,15 »and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace«).

 

 

 

Mr. Right

colored pencil on blockboard, 80 x 120 cm, 2015


»Ich schließe die Ehe mit Dir« (I will betroth you to me)

»Ich schließe die Ehe mit Dir« (I'll marry you) and »für alle Zeiten« (forever)

lead pencil on golden colored paper, Din A 4, 2015

»And then I'll marry you for good - forever! I'll marry you and neither leave you nor let you go. You'll know me, God, for who I really am.«
Bible, Hosea 2, 19+20, translation: The Message Bible by Eugene Peterson

 

 

»Das Leben muss etwas bedeuten« (life should be significant)

»kindliche Freude« (childlike joy) and »gereifte Freude« (mature pleasure)

lead pencil on paper, 42 x 59,5 cm, 2014


»im Todesschatten« (in the shadow of death)

polyptychon: »im Todesschatten – lass uns bedenken, dass wir sterben müssen, auf dass

wir klug werden« (in the shadow of death – let us remember that we have to die,

that we may be wise)

lead pencil on paper, each 31,5 x 32,6 cm, 2013

»voller Würde« (Abundance of dignity)

commissioned work, acrylic & pencil on canvas, 100 x 100 cm, 2012

I caught a woman's attention by artwork. Some time ago Jesus told her that she should commission a 100 x 100 cm painting in future. The painting would speak to her. To her heart. It would become a picture, which would communicate in an intimal way from Jesus to her. He also explained, that she would know who should paint the picture when the time has come. When this women saw some of my book illustrations, she knew that I was the person to be asked. My guidelines were: »100 x 100 cm canvas; a picture through which god wants to speak.«

I brimmed over with enthusiasm for this assignment. I felt honored. But soon after I was overextended. I felt as I had to achieve superhuman aims. Because of that, my profession in painting was decreasing. I found myself weeping before Jesus and he made me remember the following principle: »take the small impulses you get from me and deal with them.«

From that moment I awakened that I just had to stay in communication with Jesus and to implement his speaking. I had felt overextended, because I had been in those terms of thinking: Firstly I thought I should create a masterpiece on my own. Another point was that in my opinion I was the one to make sure that god was speaking through the picture. Furthermore I thought it was my part to determine the quality of his speaking. But none could do this! I wanted to do the job of the holy spirit. It never was my job to determine the way of his speaking through the picture. And it also wasn’t my job to control if the impulses of the holy spirit were right. All those things were his job!

Again the topic was dependency and relationship. The picture shouldn’t arise without god, but in common work. This awareness delivered me.

There's much to say about the evolutionary history of this work. It was a journey with many ups and downs, on which I got closer to god and learned a lot about myself.

 

 

 

grief and pain

lead pencil & coloured pencil on paper, 60 x 42 cm, 2012

I’m not able to abide many things anymore, I actually like. A murky haze of lovelessness has covered my everyday life. In a subtly way. I can’t realize my own situation. I try to behave in a normal way, which makes me fell like being wrapped. It's an inner conflict, which isn’t just apparent for others, but also for me. Hidden in my inner man. I don’t know what’s going on with myself. I can’t understand it. I thought I’m doing well! 

Or not?

If I was asked »what’s going on with you?« I just could answer »everything is alright«, because I couldn’t define what I’m dealing with. Even this description can only be made afterwards. All of a sudden I get a mail from my sister in spirit, named Christine: »yesterday evening, when I was praying, I saw you on a small island (one of your prophetic pictures). You laid there coiled up, in need of protection as well as isolated. It seemed that you’d like to withdraw from outside world. Then I saw you with HIS EYES: he attracted and hugged you, enveloped you with his overflowing love and you had the chance to relax in his arms and to unfurl yourself. In the end, you laid happy and relaxed in the sand of the island. If you wanted, you could have gone swimming in his love!!! A really refreshing and animatedly bath! Just because you can remember his protection. You can submerge into his living water, refresh yourself and lay in the sun whenever you want. Sounds like a storybook, childish, … but I felt his love for you in such a strong way and saw it into those pictures, that I was taken with it. …«

Her mail finally gave me words for my situation! I admitted that I just wanted to hole up. That’s true! I’m overextended with all those impressions and encounters. Everything hurts! I search for protection in myself and therefore I’m introverted. But the subtly pain stays. But the chances Christine’s mail showed me, made me free from every pressure. »I can’t take solace from other people? Everything hurts? But God’s solace is available! He will hold me. His comfort will take away fights and pain. He will fill me with deep peace and stabilize me, for I can open myself to life again.«

The picture symbolizes me withdrawing from the life, which is hurting me so deep, searching for retreatment, but don’t finding any clarification or decompression. That’s the solace I’m searching in myself – a quest which is doomed to failure. Another picture will follow, in which I depict how the holy father is keeping me and bringing me back to life again.

 

 

 

»wenn die Seele nichts mehr bewegt« (when I no more can stir my soul to move)

serie: »freedom & intense life«

lead pencil, coloured pencil & edding on paper, 70 x 100 cm, 2009


When I no more can stir my soul to move,
And life is but the ashes of a fire;
When I can but remember that my heart
Once used to live and love, long and aspire,--
Oh, be thou then the first, the one thou art;
Be thou the calling, before all answering love,
And in me wake hope, fear, boundless desire.

George MacDonald, 
The Diary of an Old Soul, 
A Book of Strife in the Form of the Diary of an Old Soul,
1880, Chapter 10